My own failing conundrum
Despite not wanting to accept it, I do know why certain people get really clingy or awkwardly aggressively needy about me. If I could find someone that is capable of caring about a person like me as much as I can care about certain people, I’d give them a ring and the world.
The stupid thing is though, I can’t care about those people, because they are trying so hard to achieve it. The only people that’ve ever earned my care at that level never asked for or wanted it. And I don’t care if they can’t return that care at the same level, I want someone I have to worry about more than they worry about me.
So it ends up that the only people I can care about aren’t ever going to want me to be the one that cares about them that much.
And the people that want me to care about them that much, I’m never going to be capable of caring about.
Because I’m a fucked up person, who likes fucked up people. And I don’t want to like a non fucked up person, I just want a fucked up person of my choosing to let me like them.
Don’t even care if that person has a penis, a vagina or a horse down there.